I hate the idea of getting older. Hate almost every part of it. Except, perhaps, the concrete experiences of raising a child, having a house with my love and a dog and a cat. But I hate the increase of inhibition, the increase of a slight fear of the unknown because we have more to lose. I don't even know if we actually have more to lose, or if this fear just arises from news and loss and getting old.
I look at high schoolers and middle schoolers and am so amazingly jealous. To have the whole world ahead of you. To be naturally so present and care so deeply about things you know nothing of, to dream of doing, being something so possible in that moment.
To be young is to be the purest form of being. The opposite of omnipresence but also the same.